Alien

I feel more and more like I have no real companion to learn and grow with. I guess I am taliing about in my physical actual life, not my family because nobody is near me. As far as Blacksburg goes, I feel more and more frustrated every time I actually want to talk about something with friends and it just ends up with them saying I'm crazy, or just laughing it off due to the subject matter being 'heavy'. It really disappoints me because I thought I had cracked the code of small talk. 

'Everyone has deep issues to talk about' I say, but nobody seems comfortable on engaging those issues, challenging those most core beliefs. You are only damaging yourself by hiding behind the comforts of your identity that has been branded by society for you. No matter how you slice it, you go to sleep alone, by yourself every night, so why not make sure you know who that self is? 

Idk, I guess I am getting tired of thinking  I'm right. I want to be knocked off my feet by sormone who can change my perspective. And I know every single person has a philosophy they live by, so why are people so slow to engage and share it? Shouldn't that be exciting? Am I weird because all I want to talk about are ideas? 

Endnote- who knows, maybe I'll run into another me