Saturnday

What do i want?
Am i wasting time and why am i wasting time?
Do you do what you want to do and figure out why later?
Gino is great, is he better than me? He is braver and more secure seeming. But he seems uncomfortable with his energy when we were talking to those girls.
He seems like the New York version of me so much it is scary, it’s almost like i don’t need to live in nyc because he’s doing it for me.
If i lived in nyc, is saturn feasible while working at platt?
Would it be more feasible working in nyc?
Does Saturn have legs?
Yes, there are multiple reasons why saturn would work. All that is needed is solid product. People like my progress way more than i do. I don’t know why.
Sometimes it seems like the only thing left to do is raise a family. And that seems nice.
But it makes life seem so curt. It is weird to think of life with death. It seems more and more like a one shot deal. I don’t have any huge regrets so far, thank god, but it feels like the options for things to do are quickly being cut off, long termy.